So last night after I wrote my blog post, I got this huge inspiration to write a book. Literature has always been one of my favorite things. English was my favorite class in school. I was the weird kid who LOVED book reports, because I liked dissecting what I took away from the book. I know every book, passage and article has a main topic, but for me any sort of writing can mean 500 things depending on who’s reading it.
I mean take this blog for example, for me this is an outlet, my place to express whatever it is I am feeling or thinking. Some people may take away from the blog inspiration, some may find the posts sad, others may find joy in them. I think literature doesn’t have just one main topic. I think it’s complex and beautiful. Seeing the world through someone else’s lens, whether it be a fiction or nonfiction piece. I think that one book could have tons of different meanings. I always loved talking about books, seeing how everyone interprets what they are reading. It’s always been so fun to me.
And with this blog I discovered this love of writing. I know it’s totally different to have a blog where you write about yourself or your experiences, versus a book where you have to create and entire story land full of all kinds of characters. But creating an entire world that I control sounds so fun. I want to create something that everyone can find something in, just like this blog. Something that can inspire someone, or be a get away for another person. I want something that can have complex themes and thought provoking ideas.
The idea of people discussing something I created or just becoming so fascinated they can’t stop reading brings me so much joy. However, I am struggling with this idea that I don’t want anyone to know it’s me. I don’t want people to know it’s my book. I just want people to enjoy it and find something in the writings. But then if I don’t use my name, but I start promoting a book, anyone who actually knows me, will know it’s my book and then my real name can be leaked.
I just want to create, create something that people will be a fan of no matter where they come from or who they are. Something that can speak to anyone. A world where everyone is included (even if the characters are outcasts). I want the themes to represent things we all go through, but also open up my world to the change I wish to see in this world. I don’t know. Maybe I am nuts, but I already started writing and I am not going to stop. Even if no one except friends and family every get a chance to see my book. This is something I really want to do and I will do anything I can to make it happen.
I can’t wait to see what happens. I just want to bring something into this world that is positive, even if the theme idea isn’t totally a positive thing. I want a place where my characters develop and find out who they are, so other people who are the same age as my characters, or even a different age, can find some help with their own development. I feel really good about this, I just don’t know if it will ever go anywhere. But for right now, I am excited. I am hopeful that maybe this small dream will come true. I want to finish the book by the end of the year hopefully.
Maybe one day you’ll be reading my book and you won’t even know it. Here is too hoping. 🤞🏼